Saturday, June 16, 2012
Happy 3rd Heavenly Birthday
Dear Scott,
As your birthday approaches I began to think of how we would celebrate, with ice cream cake of course. Then I began to think of how my world has changed since you received your wings. How misplaced I am in this big old world. How everything familiar ia foreign to me.
Skylar is growing so fast. She is such a little girl with so much personality. She has a witty little personality, she is very funny in the things she comes up with. She is going to be in the 3rd grade this year. She picked up the Celebration Of Life book the other day. She never said anything , she looked at each page and then returned the book. I wonder if it was to refresh her mind with your picture. I try to do as much as I can for two of us.
You would have been so proud of Kellie and how she stuck by me before and after you left. But, the time has come for her and Blake to have their own life. Kellie is pregnant with our next grand baby,a girl, Chloe Elizabeth. Can you believe that little chubby brown haired, brown eyed, wild little boy that we thought would kill us before we got him raised is going to become a dad. I know how much you loved Kellie and how much you would have loved this baby. I will speak of you to Chloe just as I do with Skylar.
Brandi is getting married. After all these years, her and Pat are getting married. I know we didn't like him but, I don't feel we gave him a fair chance because of all the circumstances. I met him and he seems really nice. Skylar seems to like him and I think he is good to her and after all that is what we mostly care about. They will wedd in December.
I still cry, I still miss you as much now as when you left. There is so much I want to tell you, so much I would love to show you. You would be amazed with our friends, the way they have stuck by me (even when I was difficult) the way they stepped up to the plate and the things they have done that you would have done. I hope you are proud of the small progress I have made without you, it has been so difficult without you.
So as your birthday approaches , how will I celebrate without you? I will think of you as I do each and everyday. I will remember how you blessed my life, I will remember all the memories you have given me. You have given me more life far beyond my years. You have made it difficult for anyone to fill your shoes.
Happy 3rd heavenly Birthday!
Monday, February 06, 2012
Drum Roll Please
A "HUGE" thank you to Anthony and Tina who raffled off a gift for Scotty Sacks at their "awesome" Super Bowl party and collected a total of...308.00$ Scotty Sacks is off to a great start. Thank you all who generously gave to Scotty Sacks and remembered what a wonderful man Scott was. I love to hear your stories - all of them, they make me smile. I know I keep saying this but he would be in "Awe" of the love you all had for him.
We will be presenting our first two Scotty Sacks on Saturday after the Miles For Hope walk..sometime during the awards ceremony. I keep getting asked if I am ready for this, my reply is I have to be. What will I say when I stand to present these Sacks? I was going to prepare something but, how do you prepare something that is so close to your heart? Scott and I set out to do Scotty Sacks together, our plan wasn't God's plan. Our friends have stepped in , when Scott had to step out. So with them , I can do this, I have to do this.
Runners are ready to lace up their shoes and hit the pavement in the name of finding a cure for brain cancer.
On Feb. 11, nonprofit Miles for Hope will be hosting the second annual Moving Towards a Cure 5k walk/run and a one-mile family run at Harbor Park in Lake Baldwin to raise money for pediatric brain tumor research.
Last year’s event in Orlando focused on funding research for adult brain tumors and raised $39,923, said Belinda McAbee, fundraising coordinator for Miles for Hope. The goal for this event is to raise $60,000 that will go toward a $250,000 grant for pediatric brain tumor research.
This year’s ambassador is Blake Appleton, an 8-year old boy who lives in Lake Wales and suffers from brain cancer. He’s been in the national spotlight recently, having the opportunity to meet both Dwight Howard and Tim Tebow.
Appleton was diagnosed in January 2008, and after four years battling the disease, he asked his mother, Miranda Appleton, to end his chemotherapy treatments. In a post she put on her son’s Facebook page, she said her son told her, “Mommy, I love you and please don’t be unhappy with me, but I don’t want to do the chemo.”
She honored his wishes. Blake’s doctors told her that he would not go into remission even if he continued the treatments. She feels that sharing her story with others is important.
“It makes me feel good that I can share Blake with so many people, and so many people be touched and inspired by him because of what he’s going through,” Appleton said. “He’s literally been fighting for his life for the last four years, and even though he’s been fighting for his life, he chooses to try and stay positive and he’ll live his life to the fullest and be happy.”
Her son suffers from what is known as anaplastic medulloblastoma, Appleton said. Medulloblastomas account for about 20 percent of childhood brain tumors and have survival rates that range from 60 to 80 percent, according to St. Jude’s Children’s Research Hospital. Appleton said he still does most of what he used to do before being diagnosed with cancer.
“There’s really not much that he did before that he can’t do now. There’s some things he can’t do as well,” Appleton said. “Before he got sick, he could ride a bicycle without training wheels, and now it’s difficult for him to ride a bike at all because it takes physical ability to be able to ride a bike. He’ll still go out there and ride his bike.”
Miles for Hope is a nonprofit organization that raises funds and awareness for brain tumor research and clinical trials, and also provides travel assistance to qualified brain tumor patients. Last year’s 5k event was attended by about 500 people, McAbee said. This year, they are hoping to get more than 500 people to participate. There will be a complimentary continental breakfast and local food vendors will be on site. McAbee said they will have access to 911 and other emergency services, should they be necessary for medical emergencies.
Melessia Adams, a 20-year-old junior pre-medical student at the Florida Hospital College of Health Sciences, will be volunteering at this event for the first time. She found out about the event when she was searching online for volunteer work. Adams hopes her involvement will shed some light on this issue.
“I hope it will bring more awareness to others about it, maybe bring in some funds to help those who need money,” Adams said.
Adrienne Kaltenschnee, a resident of Longwood, is participating for the first time. She was inspired to participate due to her own experience with brain cancer. Her son, Christian Kaltenschee, was diagnosed with brain cancer in February of last year and died on Oct. 27. She said her own contribution to the cause of fighting brain cancer began with her son.
“My son was a giver. At his celebration service, we collected hats, and that was kind of the start of what we did,” Kaltenschee said. “Everyone who participated in the celebration service or attended brought in a new hat to donate to other kids that are still fighting cancer.”
She said she collected more than 400 hats, which she donated to Florida Hospital South and New Hope for Kids. She also donated some hats to the radiation department of Florida Hospital.
Appleton said that although her doctors may not necessarily agree with her, she continues to want her son to live as full a life as possible.
“I didn’t ever want to put boundaries on him, on what he was allowed to do and what he isn’t allowed to do,” Appleton said. “They understand how I feel about it and that I didn’t want Blake’s cancer to rob him of his childhood.
“I pretty much let Blake do whatever it is he’s wanted to do within reason. I’ve been close by just to make sure that nothing happens. Blake gets to live a life as normal as possible.”
We will be presenting our first two Scotty Sacks on Saturday after the Miles For Hope walk..sometime during the awards ceremony. I keep getting asked if I am ready for this, my reply is I have to be. What will I say when I stand to present these Sacks? I was going to prepare something to say but, how do you prepare something that is so close to your heart
We will be presenting our first two Scotty Sacks on Saturday after the Miles For Hope walk..sometime during the awards ceremony. I keep getting asked if I am ready for this, my reply is I have to be. What will I say when I stand to present these Sacks? I was going to prepare something but, how do you prepare something that is so close to your heart? Scott and I set out to do Scotty Sacks together, our plan wasn't God's plan. Our friends have stepped in , when Scott had to step out. So with them , I can do this, I have to do this.
Runners are ready to lace up their shoes and hit the pavement in the name of finding a cure for brain cancer.
On Feb. 11, nonprofit Miles for Hope will be hosting the second annual Moving Towards a Cure 5k walk/run and a one-mile family run at Harbor Park in Lake Baldwin to raise money for pediatric brain tumor research.
Last year’s event in Orlando focused on funding research for adult brain tumors and raised $39,923, said Belinda McAbee, fundraising coordinator for Miles for Hope. The goal for this event is to raise $60,000 that will go toward a $250,000 grant for pediatric brain tumor research.
This year’s ambassador is Blake Appleton, an 8-year old boy who lives in Lake Wales and suffers from brain cancer. He’s been in the national spotlight recently, having the opportunity to meet both Dwight Howard and Tim Tebow.
Appleton was diagnosed in January 2008, and after four years battling the disease, he asked his mother, Miranda Appleton, to end his chemotherapy treatments. In a post she put on her son’s Facebook page, she said her son told her, “Mommy, I love you and please don’t be unhappy with me, but I don’t want to do the chemo.”
She honored his wishes. Blake’s doctors told her that he would not go into remission even if he continued the treatments. She feels that sharing her story with others is important.
“It makes me feel good that I can share Blake with so many people, and so many people be touched and inspired by him because of what he’s going through,” Appleton said. “He’s literally been fighting for his life for the last four years, and even though he’s been fighting for his life, he chooses to try and stay positive and he’ll live his life to the fullest and be happy.”
Her son suffers from what is known as anaplastic medulloblastoma, Appleton said. Medulloblastomas account for about 20 percent of childhood brain tumors and have survival rates that range from 60 to 80 percent, according to St. Jude’s Children’s Research Hospital. Appleton said he still does most of what he used to do before being diagnosed with cancer.
“There’s really not much that he did before that he can’t do now. There’s some things he can’t do as well,” Appleton said. “Before he got sick, he could ride a bicycle without training wheels, and now it’s difficult for him to ride a bike at all because it takes physical ability to be able to ride a bike. He’ll still go out there and ride his bike.”
Miles for Hope is a nonprofit organization that raises funds and awareness for brain tumor research and clinical trials, and also provides travel assistance to qualified brain tumor patients. Last year’s 5k event was attended by about 500 people, McAbee said. This year, they are hoping to get more than 500 people to participate. There will be a complimentary continental breakfast and local food vendors will be on site. McAbee said they will have access to 911 and other emergency services, should they be necessary for medical emergencies.
Melessia Adams, a 20-year-old junior pre-medical student at the Florida Hospital College of Health Sciences, will be volunteering at this event for the first time. She found out about the event when she was searching online for volunteer work. Adams hopes her involvement will shed some light on this issue.
“I hope it will bring more awareness to others about it, maybe bring in some funds to help those who need money,” Adams said.
Adrienne Kaltenschnee, a resident of Longwood, is participating for the first time. She was inspired to participate due to her own experience with brain cancer. Her son, Christian Kaltenschee, was diagnosed with brain cancer in February of last year and died on Oct. 27. She said her own contribution to the cause of fighting brain cancer began with her son.
“My son was a giver. At his celebration service, we collected hats, and that was kind of the start of what we did,” Kaltenschee said. “Everyone who participated in the celebration service or attended brought in a new hat to donate to other kids that are still fighting cancer.”
She said she collected more than 400 hats, which she donated to Florida Hospital South and New Hope for Kids. She also donated some hats to the radiation department of Florida Hospital.
Appleton said that although her doctors may not necessarily agree with her, she continues to want her son to live as full a life as possible.
“I didn’t ever want to put boundaries on him, on what he was allowed to do and what he isn’t allowed to do,” Appleton said. “They understand how I feel about it and that I didn’t want Blake’s cancer to rob him of his childhood.
“I pretty much let Blake do whatever it is he’s wanted to do within reason. I’ve been close by just to make sure that nothing happens. Blake gets to live a life as normal as possible.”
We will be presenting our first two Scotty Sacks on Saturday after the Miles For Hope walk..sometime during the awards ceremony. I keep getting asked if I am ready for this, my reply is I have to be. What will I say when I stand to present these Sacks? I was going to prepare something to say but, how do you prepare something that is so close to your heart
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Thank You For Wearing Grey For Scott
Monday, December 12, 2011
Scott Had A Dream
Wednesday, December 07, 2011
Were Walking Because We Can Not Fly
Tuesday, December 06, 2011
Just Cleared the Last Hurdle
Wishing lanterns (sky lanterns), what a wonderful way to send messages to Heaven. I know they won't actually make it there but, the whole idea eases the hearts of those that are left behind.
I had placed an order and had them shipped via slow boat from China. First things first, the bank transfer and their surcharge. They arrived in New York and I was hit with a storage charge.The lanterns were then sent to Orlando, only I wasn't notified until I called New York. Blake and I headed to Orlando to pick up the lanterns. The warehouse was not in the best of neighborhoods. I arrived with my release and was asked for my customs clearance paperwork. My what? Where was I suppose to get that? From a customs broker or I could go to the customs office and beg and plead for them to release the goods. Back track to the customs office where I pleaded my case. The gentleman that waited on me was diagnosed with lung cancer and had to under go treatment. They ran a background check on me and he gladly stamped my paperwork. Back to the warehouse but, the release I had was from Dolphin and he needed one from JIF. Blake patiently called Dolphin 4 times and we waited. I was also informed that because the merchandise had been there so long..(that was between me and Dolphin) not me and the warehouse, the storage was up to $2,400.00 By this point I was ready to walk. After talking to the guy and explaining everything he was willing to charge me the minimum plus a processing fee. Blake and I loaded up the lanterns. All this over two boxes that fit in the back of my Jeep.
After I figured up the total cost of the merchandise, the shipping and the storage from New York, the lanterns were cheaper to buy in America.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Move Over
I will try to keep both blogs updated. This one and Scotty Sacks, an organization set for kids with Brain Tumors/Cancer. What we are doing , when we are doing it and how you can help. Scott was added to Miles4Hope's Memorial wall. Our team "Steps For Scott" will be walking in Orlando February 11, 2012. If you would like to walk please let me know and I will tell you how to register to walk for Miles For Hope "Steps For Scott" We set our goal to raise $1,900.00 as Scott's favorite number was 19. Please join us
Scott Zech was diagnosed with Astrocytoma in 1994 at 27 years of age. At the time, he was given 5 years to live. He surpassed all milestones his doctors set for him and passed away in 2011, after surviving for 16.5 years with this disease.
Scott was not only amazing, but the way he continued to triumph this disease was amazing. He wanted people to know that a brain cancer diagnosis did not have to be a death sentence, and proceeded to live his life to the fullest for those 16.5 years. Walking in the path of cancer, he and his wife Dalana met wonderful people and made friends they otherwise would not have made. Scott always said that Astrocytoma was his cross to bear. Dalana says that she was the lucky one to help him carry it.
Scott was 43 years old when he passed away. When his granddaughter Skylar asked where Pappy was, Dalana told her he was dancing with the angels. Skylar donated her hair a few months later to Locks of Love.
Scott meant so much to so many, not because he had brain cancer, but because how he chose to live his life after being diagnosed with brain cancer.
Scott Zech
Diagnosed with Astrocytoma in 1994 -
27 years old
Became an Angel on March 19, 2010
Scott Zech was diagnosed with Astrocytoma in 1994 at 27 years of age. At the time, he was given 5 years to live. He surpassed all milestones his doctors set for him and passed away in 2011, after surviving for 16.5 years with this disease.
Scott was not only amazing, but the way he continued to triumph this disease was amazing. He wanted people to know that a brain cancer diagnosis did not have to be a death sentence, and proceeded to live his life to the fullest for those 16.5 years. Walking in the path of cancer, he and his wife Dalana met wonderful people and made friends they otherwise would not have made. Scott always said that Astrocytoma was his cross to bear. Dalana says that she was the lucky one to help him carry it.
Scott was 43 years old when he passed away. When his granddaughter Skylar asked where Pappy was, Dalana told her he was dancing with the angels. Skylar donated her hair a few months later to Locks of Love.
Scott meant so much to so many, not because he had brain cancer, but because how he chose to live his life after being diagnosed with brain cancer.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
I Lost My Spirit..
to blog. I first started this blog to keep our friends updated on Scott's health. I thought after he passed away I would use it so others could watch (the one who owned the other half of Scott's heart) Skylar grow. But, something just didn't seem right. Until now...
We are ready to start operating under Scotty Sacks. A long and emotional road for us. I thought at first I could just take my time and do things at a slow pace. I then realized that if I don't jump in with both feet, people may forget Scott. They may forget how he touched their lives, they may forget the gift of a life , they may forget who he was and what a difference he wanted to make in the lives of children fighting the very disease that took his life.
It has been an emotional road. Our life has been changed forever. As we take on this journey I feel like a new life has been breathed into me. As I have said so many times before , there was a reason I was choosen to walk Scott's journey with him and until my last breath I will continue to work to make his dream come true. I hope that Scotty Sacks will be a small distraction to a child going through treatments.
We are ready to start operating under Scotty Sacks. A long and emotional road for us. I thought at first I could just take my time and do things at a slow pace. I then realized that if I don't jump in with both feet, people may forget Scott. They may forget how he touched their lives, they may forget the gift of a life , they may forget who he was and what a difference he wanted to make in the lives of children fighting the very disease that took his life.
It has been an emotional road. Our life has been changed forever. As we take on this journey I feel like a new life has been breathed into me. As I have said so many times before , there was a reason I was choosen to walk Scott's journey with him and until my last breath I will continue to work to make his dream come true. I hope that Scotty Sacks will be a small distraction to a child going through treatments.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
People Often Wonder
how I am doing. I was the lucky one that was chosen to take Scott's journey in life with him. Though at times it was painful, it was also very rewarding. Scott was not only an insipiration to me but, to all those who knew him. I have decided to celebrate Scott's life , not mourn his death. I have been busy working with a local artist and a toy manufacturer for Scotty Sacks.
The Scotty sack logo is done. I couldn't be happier, it is absolutely amazing. Only a selected few have seen the logo and Scott's neuro-oncologist and Gail his physician assistant were two of them and it made their day. They were glad to see I was doing something in memory of Scott for kids with brain tumors. I want to keep the logo a secret for awhile. I have been amazed at all the medical professionals that want to donate for this wonderful cause , all the love, support and volunteers. I have my list of volunteers and when I am ready I will contact each one. I am still working on making the organization legal.
Scotty Sacks will also need a website and I will need a volunteer to create and run it , so if anyone knows anyone that has some time on their hands and wants to donate it please let me know.
The Scotty sack logo is done. I couldn't be happier, it is absolutely amazing. Only a selected few have seen the logo and Scott's neuro-oncologist and Gail his physician assistant were two of them and it made their day. They were glad to see I was doing something in memory of Scott for kids with brain tumors. I want to keep the logo a secret for awhile. I have been amazed at all the medical professionals that want to donate for this wonderful cause , all the love, support and volunteers. I have my list of volunteers and when I am ready I will contact each one. I am still working on making the organization legal.
Scotty Sacks will also need a website and I will need a volunteer to create and run it , so if anyone knows anyone that has some time on their hands and wants to donate it please let me know.
Monday, July 12, 2010
In General
Blake and Kellie arrived last night. Blake is home - out of the Army. I wonder how long it will take him to acclimate to civilian life? He and Kellie will look for jobs and enroll in school.
I have been really busy in general. Cleaning out the old and going down memory lane. What wonderful memories.
The Scotty Sack logo should be ready on Friday. I need to meet with the attorney to fill out all the proper paperwork to legalize the organization and I need to speak with an accountant. I have been overwhelmed by the amount of support by people wanting to help.
I have been really busy in general. Cleaning out the old and going down memory lane. What wonderful memories.
The Scotty Sack logo should be ready on Friday. I need to meet with the attorney to fill out all the proper paperwork to legalize the organization and I need to speak with an accountant. I have been overwhelmed by the amount of support by people wanting to help.
Wednesday, June 02, 2010
Changing Kids Lives, One Smile At A Time
What are Scotty Sacks? They are sacks that will be created in keeping Scott's spirit alive. It was Scott's dream to create a sack for children fighting brain cancer. We are hoping to fill the sack with a personal DVD player and age appropriate movies or Nintendo DS and age appropriate games and or other things that will comfort children going through treatment and during their hospital stay. These sacks will be delivered to the children in the hospitals.
I am very fortunate to have a well known local artist donate his time and talent to design a kid friendly logo that symbolizes Scott and one of his greatest joys. I want to keep it a secret and unveil it at a benefit I am working on in the near future. I have also been fortunate to have an attorney set up the organization pro bono.
As things get under way I will be looking for items to be either raffled or auctioned off at the benefit. More details to come.
I am very fortunate to have a well known local artist donate his time and talent to design a kid friendly logo that symbolizes Scott and one of his greatest joys. I want to keep it a secret and unveil it at a benefit I am working on in the near future. I have also been fortunate to have an attorney set up the organization pro bono.
As things get under way I will be looking for items to be either raffled or auctioned off at the benefit. More details to come.
Tuesday, June 01, 2010
Riding The Waves
We spent our Memorial Day at the ocean. The waves were awesome and Skylar took full advantage of them. This kid can boogie board. It looked like a storm was going to roll in so we packed up and headed the long 5 blocks home to swim in the pool. We surrounded our day with a picnic and lots of water. Happy Memorial Day to everyone. Thank you to all our soldiers who serve or have serve our country.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Goodbye Kindergarten
After work on Friday Skylar and I went to the mall shopping for a dress and shoes for her Kindergarten graduation. After walking through several stores, we found the perfect dress.
We raced home took a shower, I blow dried her hair and Kellie did her toes. We stopped at the store to pick up flowers for her teacher and managed to arrive at the church half an hour early to get seats in the second row - the first row was reserved for all those cute little kindergartners. After graduation Michelle, Kellie and I took Skylar out for Ice Cream to celebrate her special day. Skylar was so tired - she was punchy. When we got home went to bed and in 5 minutes she was out like a light.
Saturday we went to Vero Beach shopping and because we were gone most of the day she didn't have time to swim so she wanted to spend the night again. Sunday we took her to church with us and then her dad picked her up for a party.
We raced home took a shower, I blow dried her hair and Kellie did her toes. We stopped at the store to pick up flowers for her teacher and managed to arrive at the church half an hour early to get seats in the second row - the first row was reserved for all those cute little kindergartners. After graduation Michelle, Kellie and I took Skylar out for Ice Cream to celebrate her special day. Skylar was so tired - she was punchy. When we got home went to bed and in 5 minutes she was out like a light.
Saturday we went to Vero Beach shopping and because we were gone most of the day she didn't have time to swim so she wanted to spend the night again. Sunday we took her to church with us and then her dad picked her up for a party.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Spreading The Love
Skylar graduates from Kindergarten on Friday so I surprised her by picking her at school for dinner and a haircut. When we got to the salon Skylar's hair was long enough to donate to locks of love. It looks super cute and because she spends most her time in the pool during the summer the cut is perfect for her. She is growing up so fast. I can't believe first grade is right around the corner. She still talks about Pappy and I try to continue to answer all her questions.
Friday, May 14, 2010
Friends
May 12th was to be mine and Scott's 10 year anniversary. Our plan was to spend it in Hawaii renewing our wedding vows - only God had a different plan. My friends decided to take me to the Melting Pot so I wouldn't be alone. I received beautiful flowers, the food was great, conversation was great. We told stories of Scott, we laughed and we cried. My friends truly feel my emotions. I couldn't have asked for a better group of people. My friends are closer than my family and I am so blessed to have them in my life. I love each and everyone of them. When Scott passed away I wanted to lay down and die. I didn't see how I was going to survive the pain I was feeling, I didn't want to survive the pain I was feeling. It was my friends that helped me see the light through my darkest days. Scott left such an impact in this world. I still continue to receive cards and stories of the lives he touched.
Tuesday, May 04, 2010
Still Going
Kellie called me at work to tell me there was a baby mouse in the pool. suggested she let it drown but, she wanted to save it. Milo was pointing so I went to the pool to see what he had and her baby mouse was a baby rat. Kellie saved two and I let two drown. I guess the momma rat had a litter in the waterfall. The babies ended up in the pool. I never knew rats could swim the way they did.
The doctor I work for had a Birmingham Hip and I flew to Ohio on Thursday to pick him up and we flew back Friday. I have been staying at his house helping out with the dogs. The river is so beautiful this time of year. I have had a lot of down time to think. Which isn't a bad thing.
I go until my body can't go anymore and then I seem to collapse for a few hours of sleep. I am doing better then I thought. Skylar still asks a ton of questions and I find my self exhausted trying to stay two steps ahead of her. Her innocence at times, breaks my heart. She uses her Pappys Sugar jar a lot. So I make sure that stays stocked. Scott and I were going to renew our vows this month for our ten year anniversary. I had gotten the confirmation e-mail yesterday and it made me realize just how short life is and how fast time goes. Kellie is still here. Blake's unit was suppose to be home by the end of the month. The soldiers had already started shipping there personal things back to the states but, there is a hold on sending them home.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Busy, Crazy Weekend
We all called Scott are girlfriend, because he was able to mesh with the girls. So this weekend we thought we would try Dave out as a girlfriend. Beth, Dave, Michelle, Matt , Kellie and myself went to Altamonte to do some shopping and then to lunch. Dave passed the test he can hang with the girls. Matt didn't do so well , he is not girlfriend material. After we returned back to the coast everyone took their treasures and headed home.
Kellie and I drove to pick up Skylar. We then walked to the soccer fields so the dogs and Skylar could run. After we returned home Kellie and I decided to switch the beds from the back room to the front room and the front room to the back room to give Kellie more storage.
Sunday Dave and Beth met us at Church. Good service but, I seem to struggle emotionally through most of it. Again when we got home we still had organizing to do. Things to go through to see if they were worth keeping. Most of it junk. But, we managed with a few injuries to get one room done and the other 3/4 done.
Monday, April 05, 2010
I Am Surviving
The last couple weeks have been filled with allot of emotions. First I want to apologize to everyone that found out that Scott had lost his life through the blog. I found as many phone numbers as I could. Our computer at home had crashed and I lost allot of emails. Thank you to everyone who brought over food , many of our friends. a few from the local fire department and family was fed while paying their last respects to Scott. Thank you to all my family and friends who were there during the most difficult time in my life.
Scott and I talked about making bags and fill them with misc. things and pass them out in hospitals for kids with cancer. The name of the bags. We would call the bags "Scotty Sacks". This will be my way, along with my family and close friends of honoring Scott. I have been trying to get Skylar as much as possible because she misses her Pappy so much. After her shower she sleeps and his t-shirt and his underwear. I have to tie an elastic around the underwear to hold them up. Sometimes she will even ask for a pair of his socks. When Skylar would stay with us on the weekend and her dad would pick her up, Scott would always make her run back into the house to give him sugar AKA: a sweet kiss on the cheek.
I filled a jar full of sweet treats and wrote in chalk on the front "Pappy's Sugar".
Blake returned back too Iraq on Saturday. So we spent allot of the weekend eating out before he had to return to mess hall food. He says the food is not bad but, is better here. Kellie, Michelle, Skylar and I went to Sunrise Service Sunday and then went home to color eggs. Matt & Michelle had invited Kellie and I over for Easter lunch. Matt made a wonderful ham.
My sister Tina had came over on Friday with my nieces and they did our annual flash light Easter egg hunt. The older girls went to the beach on Saturday and when Tina went to pick them up she had a sharp pain in her arm and chest. She came back to the house and was miserable. I first tried to get her to let me take her to the hospital and she didn't want to go. I gave her a heating pad, antibiotics because she had a terrible cough and Dialudid for the pain. The next morning she decided to skip sunrise service and drive home. Again, I asked her to let me drive her home but she insisted she was fine. When she got home she went to the hospital, where they admitted her in ICU with a collapsed lung.
Because of all the challenges Scott and I dealt with on a day to day basis we felt if people had a negative impact in our lives or created allot of drama we wouldn't deal with it. We wanted to be surround by positive people. Sadly, some of this drama was family. So Scott and I choose not to have relationships with some of those people. I have had to sever a relationship with my youngest sister because it was not a healthy relationship. She had shocked and amazed me with things she did and said after Scott passed. Some my think it is cold hearted and I should forgive but, some things are unforgivable. I returned back to the church Scott and I loved so much a week after Scott passed away. I think it will be good healing for me. Some days are harder than others. My friend, Karen bought me the book titled I Wasn't Ready To Say Goodbye and I am in the process of reading that.
Scott and I talked about making bags and fill them with misc. things and pass them out in hospitals for kids with cancer. The name of the bags. We would call the bags "Scotty Sacks". This will be my way, along with my family and close friends of honoring Scott. I have been trying to get Skylar as much as possible because she misses her Pappy so much. After her shower she sleeps and his t-shirt and his underwear. I have to tie an elastic around the underwear to hold them up. Sometimes she will even ask for a pair of his socks. When Skylar would stay with us on the weekend and her dad would pick her up, Scott would always make her run back into the house to give him sugar AKA: a sweet kiss on the cheek.
I filled a jar full of sweet treats and wrote in chalk on the front "Pappy's Sugar".
Blake returned back too Iraq on Saturday. So we spent allot of the weekend eating out before he had to return to mess hall food. He says the food is not bad but, is better here. Kellie, Michelle, Skylar and I went to Sunrise Service Sunday and then went home to color eggs. Matt & Michelle had invited Kellie and I over for Easter lunch. Matt made a wonderful ham.
My sister Tina had came over on Friday with my nieces and they did our annual flash light Easter egg hunt. The older girls went to the beach on Saturday and when Tina went to pick them up she had a sharp pain in her arm and chest. She came back to the house and was miserable. I first tried to get her to let me take her to the hospital and she didn't want to go. I gave her a heating pad, antibiotics because she had a terrible cough and Dialudid for the pain. The next morning she decided to skip sunrise service and drive home. Again, I asked her to let me drive her home but she insisted she was fine. When she got home she went to the hospital, where they admitted her in ICU with a collapsed lung.
Because of all the challenges Scott and I dealt with on a day to day basis we felt if people had a negative impact in our lives or created allot of drama we wouldn't deal with it. We wanted to be surround by positive people. Sadly, some of this drama was family. So Scott and I choose not to have relationships with some of those people. I have had to sever a relationship with my youngest sister because it was not a healthy relationship. She had shocked and amazed me with things she did and said after Scott passed. Some my think it is cold hearted and I should forgive but, some things are unforgivable. I returned back to the church Scott and I loved so much a week after Scott passed away. I think it will be good healing for me. Some days are harder than others. My friend, Karen bought me the book titled I Wasn't Ready To Say Goodbye and I am in the process of reading that.
Monday, March 22, 2010
SCOTT ZECH
Scott M. Zech Satellite Beach Scott M. Zech, 43, lost his courageous 16 year battle with brain cancer on Friday, March 19, 2010. He passed away at home surrounded by his family and friends. Scott's path in life wasn't always easy, the bends and turns made him the man he was. Everyone that knew Scott has a little piece of heaven here on earth. Scott touched the lives of so many. He lived his life to the fullest, not knowing if there would be a tomorrow. His sense of humor, his smile and laughter will shine on forever in his loved ones left behind. He is survived by the love of his life, Dalana; daughter, Brandy Rogers of Melbourne; son, Blake Rogers (Kellie) serving in Iraq; his precious grand daughter, Skylar Hume. He was the devoted brother and friend of Aaron Ford and Michelle Brown. Memorial service will be at 3:00 p.m. Wednesday, March 24th at Satellite Beach Methodist Church. Donations may be sent to the Lance Armstrong Foundation in honor of Scott.Saturday, March 20, 2010
My World Is Changed
We had the best of the best doctors. They had an elaborate plan to begin treatment and everyone was on board. A plan that seemed so perfect - went so wrong. With only a few treatments into the treatment plan Scott began to decline. I spoke with the doctor who had been treating Scott the last 8 years and he said that the tumor had already crossed into Scott's motor skill. Dr. N. said that even if when the 28 radiation treatments were done that Scott would need a full time nursing facility. Scott would be unable to walk, to care for himself , he wouldn't even be able to feed himself. I felt like the wind had been knocked out of me. I knew that wasn't even an option. I knew Scott wouldn't want to live that way and it was no way to live.
I made arrangements that day to bring Scott home. The home we built together, the home we made so many memories. Michelle had came to the house after work to make sure everything was ready for Scott to return home. On the way home I rode in transport with Scott I asked that the waterfall turned on so Scott would have a familier noise. I wasn't prepared for so many people who had come to the house - family and friends. The hospice nurse was here and things were hectic until Scott got settled in. Scott was aggitated from the drive. Monday night was the last words Scott spoke and he spoke them to his brother Aaron.
I never left Scott's side except to brush my teeth and to go to the restroom. I wanted Scott to know that I was always there. It amazed me the amount of people that would come by to pay their respects. At no time was our bed empty, the more people in the bed the more love. So many people commented on what a beautiful picture it was. Scott was surrounded by so many people and so much love. Scott went so peaceful. So many commented on my strength. My strength came from my love for Scott, the love from my family and friends. Scott lost his battle on Friday at 11:45.
It was tough to tell Skylar. She asked me if I was serious and I said yes. Skylar said he wasn't even old - he wasn't even close. She cried, she said how much she would miss him and then she sat down and drew him pictures. I am hoping that I can be strong and be all I can be for Skylar. I will do all I can so she never forgets him.
I am in the process of still making arrangements. I will post them on the blog as soon as they are finalized.
I made arrangements that day to bring Scott home. The home we built together, the home we made so many memories. Michelle had came to the house after work to make sure everything was ready for Scott to return home. On the way home I rode in transport with Scott I asked that the waterfall turned on so Scott would have a familier noise. I wasn't prepared for so many people who had come to the house - family and friends. The hospice nurse was here and things were hectic until Scott got settled in. Scott was aggitated from the drive. Monday night was the last words Scott spoke and he spoke them to his brother Aaron.
I never left Scott's side except to brush my teeth and to go to the restroom. I wanted Scott to know that I was always there. It amazed me the amount of people that would come by to pay their respects. At no time was our bed empty, the more people in the bed the more love. So many people commented on what a beautiful picture it was. Scott was surrounded by so many people and so much love. Scott went so peaceful. So many commented on my strength. My strength came from my love for Scott, the love from my family and friends. Scott lost his battle on Friday at 11:45.
It was tough to tell Skylar. She asked me if I was serious and I said yes. Skylar said he wasn't even old - he wasn't even close. She cried, she said how much she would miss him and then she sat down and drew him pictures. I am hoping that I can be strong and be all I can be for Skylar. I will do all I can so she never forgets him.
I am in the process of still making arrangements. I will post them on the blog as soon as they are finalized.
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